My first feeling upon awakening today was joyless.
The first thoughts in my mind were troublesome.
 
I asked myself, “How could this be? I spent yesterday doing decrees every hour for poise, peace, inner harmony and expanding my cosmic costume to include larger and larger space. I should be feeling ecstatic.”
 
After much inner searching, the “clue” was a short, three-letter word. FUN.
 
Dissecting “fun” revealed:

• FUN = water, food, creating

 
That was it. Being in or on the water. Eating. And making things.
 
What did they all have in common? HANDS

• Hands could touch and feel
• They pulled me through the water while swimming
• They splashed water on my face and played in the hot tub
• They cooked and cleaned
• They shoved food in my mouth
• They wrote, keyboarded and journaled
• They created….lifted rocks, dug soil, planted seeds, pulled weeds, painted, built, crafted, sewed, beaded….in short EXPRESSED CREATIVITY in THE PHYSICAL

In short, HANDS were the source of my FUN.

FUN was not in meditation…no hand use except for mudras.
FUN was not in decreeing…that was mind and inner vision.
FUN was not in sitting still, for the hands were then IDLE.
 
Hmmmm.....so what was wrong with "idle" I asked myself. 

Instantly aphorisms about idle hands ran dancing and shouting thorugh my mind.

WHERE did I pick up the idea that "idle hands" were a bad thing?
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So, I googled 'idle hands', and there it was.....a devil's trove of old sayings used to frighten children in the dark sooty days of Charles Dickens and traced even farther back to the days of Chaucer. 

I saw that my favorite author in my late teens was also listed as a source of idle hand admonishing. Reading and falling in love with transcendentalist Henry David Thoreau slickly programmed my life without me recognizing it, slipping in the following belief in between my drinking in his philosophies about humanity and nature: “The devil finds work for idle hands.”
 
So I became a person whose HANDS were always busy.
 
If I were doing something where they were NOT busy (not feeling, not moving, not touching, not in motion), negativity would use me.
 
So how could my heartfelt spiritually directed creatively intentioned decrees manifest ANYTHING if my hands were sitting still in the process!!!!!

​It was time to give my hands some freedom along with the rest of my life.
 
Today, my spiritual prowess has been freed.

One year after our populace created the presidential choice between a woman or a businessman, I thought I would share what Lady Master Natasha and the Council of 8 had to say about it. They were very non-partisan and would not speak of it until the actual evening of the election.

"History will be made regarding your elections and the outcome of these elections.

"There is that which is occurring in mass consciousness on your planet freeing itself of limitations far beyond that which your conscious mind might understand.

There is that which is coming to fruition that will complete karmic energies for what are called your United States.

"Be at peace and follow your heart in making your choices, for it is not so much about the choices you are making in the external as it is the choices you are making internally and about the attitudes and the judgments that you can overcome within yourself and your own being at this spectacular moment in your future history.

Be at peace, Beloveds. All will be well."

What is most important about their words of wisdom is that they bring the importance of an outer-world event right back to the place of MOST importance....our inner self---what we think and feel.

All reactions to any event or experience indicate limitations that exist within the consciousness of the self, limitations which we have come here to identify and alter when it suits our ascension preparations. The greatest gift of this past election was the opportunity to find within ourselves what we felt/believed (from past lives or present) about a woman or a businessman running our country.

That gift can be so large we can miss it in the emotional reactions of choices we may not have wanted at all.

There are an infinite number of "realities" locked into illusion. As we live out the plays called our 'life', we often make the error of identifying with the outer world, the world of 'illusion'. When this happens, one bases many if not all of their decisions on what others would think, say, or do or on what the outer world seems to need. That is allowing illusion----the playground of life---to determine something far too precious. It is allowing that which is of shadows to create for the god/goddess within you.

What is the one 'true' thing that exists in any of the plays you live within? In any situation in life, be it glorious or traumatic? Your Heartsong. That is ALL that exists.

We are a combination of frequencies that emit from our being and create our 'song', be it harmonious or chaotic. If you wonder what your song is like, observe the animal kingdom around you. Does it avoid you, run to you, slink off unnoticed, fly away? When the frequencies we emit are not in harmony with our surroundings, the outer world demonstrates immediately.

When they are, it also responds. I was involved in my first home sale using a realtor. I had bought and sold houses and land without a realtor and the exorbitant fees and the back-and-forth communication through a third party. I always paid the asking price and made friends in the process. 

My first experience with a realtor was harsh and felt as though no one was working 'on my side'. My Heartsong was full of lament and powerlessness. I was locked into a contract that was very unfair and lopsided, while I prefer to create win-win. 

If I believed the outer world and its illusions, thinking the contract unbreakable and my position not changeable, as the realtors all explained, I would have remained at the mercy of the shadowy outer world of illusion. Instead, I began visualizing the contract torn up and someone asking quite frantically to pay full price and how soon could I take their money?

In this place of visualizing, my Heartsong was firm and fair. I wanted a new truth for both seller (me) and buyer. The "impossible" happened. The contract had to be renegotiated because the buyer wanted a different kind of loan. I submitted my new terms on the last day of the option period, and one hour before closing, the buyer accepted all aspects of the new contract.

Who knew when I decided to penpal nonviolent prisoners that it would lead to the fulfillment of future needs? 

My  favorite saying is "All my needs are met before I know I have them." One incarcerated penpal turned out to be an exquisite artist who designed the illustrations for my Thought Karate book/game. He not only created a fish that Disney had not yet drawn, but worked closely with me to make over 15 different looks for that fish!  All as a gift.

Now, years later, he has been released and lives in my city. When I needed help in my immense garden and acre of land, he eagerly volunteered to come at least weekly to do 'whatever needs done.' So, as I was wondering how in the world I would undo the damage the drought caused and help the land recover, my help shows up! Another gift.

In addition, it turns out he is the resource for upgrading my weak remodeling skills. Having been gifted Blue Bahia granite countertops by a friend whose children I tutored for years (another example of, "Who knew that helping write all those essays and preparing tests for my student to practice with would lead to the fulfillment of a dream kitchen?), I wanted to upgrade the 1927 farmhouse kitchen to make it worthy of its new beauty.
 
I discovered my former penpal has two sisters, one of whom loves to remodel with tile (I need to put in a backsplash) and has all the equipment needed and the other's hobby is as a floor specialist (my wooden floor needs serious help). I had no skills in either of these areas, and didn't even know where to turn to get it done. Why should I have worried??? My needs were met even before I knew I had them.  

These days, when the energy of the planet seems to be quickening as consciousness awakens more and more, the need-fulfillment occurs even more quickly. One recent goal was to complete the landscaping of the  large pond we dug two summers ago. The rocks around its edge did not cover up the plastic siding and were not level.

Inner voice led me to a site on craigslist where rocks were free for the hauling, and then our next door neighbor 'just happened' to come over to finish cutting down a dead tree and wanted to go with us to get the rocks. A free and friendly rock lifter! When we returned, he helped redo the pond, and it turned out he had a latent rock laying talent. The project I thought would be so difficult and time-consuming and needed more muscle power than I possessed was done within just a few hours.

Opening to allow the gifting of the universe makes it Christmas every day! How could we ever let ourselves believe anything less?

I am surfing the internet when the lack of sleep last night and the earlier than usual arisal this morning seem to overcome me. I gently close my eyes while waiting for the computer to load the new search I have initiated. Almost instantly I go deeply into inner space. The outer world and my internet task fade quickly away, so quickly that I wonder why I need return. Why not just plunge into the invitational peace cavern and stop the participation in the world of illusion? "Why not?" I ask myself, again and again, as the luscious darkness of inner bliss takes me deeper by the nanosecond.

The answer surfaces and take me by surprise, "Because it would be selfish."

If moving into the All-in-All and surrendering to the Infinite Isness from which we originated is 'selfish', and we live in a culture where 'selfish' is something to avoid, how will we ever ascend???

Using the ever-dependable system of Thought Karate to discover where and when this idea originated, I find I have brought it with me into this life. No doubt ONE of the reasons I am still alive "here".

My new thought, you ask?  "Wherever I am, the infallible guidance of HeartMind will assist me in freeing myself from all undesired illusions, including the concept that 'selfish' is always a bad thing." So be it.

I awoke at 2:30 a.m. replaying in my mind the  scenes from the night before. Nine beautiful beings gathered to enter The Peace, guided by the ascended Lady Master Natasha. During socializing before the meditation, I was admiring various aspects of those present: creamy beautiful skin; the willingness to have blood testing done to keep the body as healthy and youthful as possible; the ability to travel anywhere at any time; ageless faces; willpower; slender bodies; exotic beauty. 

Pondering what these glorious human beings might be mirroring for me when none of the things I was admiring about them felt like my experience, I realized they showed me what I thought I could not have. How did I recognize that? By becoming aware of the tiny little almost unrecognizable feeling that co-existed along with my appreciation.

As I enjoyed the loveliness of flawless skin, I felt a tiny ‘alas, not me’. As I drank in the beautiful face that radiated illumination and sheer exquisiteness, I felt the same tiny ‘alas, not me’. And so it went for each quality or characteristic I admired. Since I did not resent but only enjoyed that which I beheld, I did not recognize the miniscule negative  reinforcement I was giving myself with each admiration until ‘the morning
after’ our peace meditation. Somehow, being in The Peace delivers gifts like that. 

Then a second mirrored revelation drifted up from the quiet, somewhat groggy ethers of half-awakeness. I heard the words “encouragement from doctors and difficulties”.  I realized that was true in the lives of each of those present at the gathering: difficulties or medical/scientific information spurred them on to achieve the very things I was appreciating about them.  For myself, on the other hand,  difficulty just discouraged me, and seeking medical advice was an innate terror. So the hidden mirrored message was, "If I did not seek medical/scientific advice or create difficulties to live through, I would not manifest the qualities I saw reflected in others that night."

Ahhhh…. the freedom that comes from releasing limitations. 

I was the first car in line, stopped at a traffic light, waiting electronic permission to enter the freeway. A mongoloid woman approached the passenger side of my car holding a sign that said: Need Food for Family. I looked directly into her face, wondering about her situation. We shared direct eye contact while my many thoughts jostled for top recognition. Before I could respond to any of them, she slowly and silently moved on to the car behind me.

By the time I remembered I had apples and oranges in the back seat, I could not reach either her or them. Then Inner Voice said to me, "It is not food that she wants."

I wondered what else I had to offer. By simply having that query, the answer came. She wanted freedom from the limits she lived within. While she might have wanted food for herself or loved one, or might just be forced to work the streets for an overlord of some sort, her mere contact with me said 'Help me'. 

We are taught that we must ask our teachers and guides for help before they can give to us, so when this woman asked for help by her actions and the words on her sign, I was free to pour forth violet fire into her being to transmute lifetimes of self-slavery. I was free to fill her with white fire and sacred flames, to send into her concsciousness the thoughts and feelings of ascended masters wanting us all to awaken to our true potential.

That evening during our monthly Tuesday night Question and Answer Session with Lady Master Natasha, she referred to my experience, even though I spoke of it to no one:

"Why not be holding in your consciousness a sweetness for each one that you perceive to be outside of yourself? You have heard the phrase, "Walk a mile in another person's  moccasins." That is because at some time in your existence, somewhere, you may have done exactly the same thing, and if you could remember it, you could remember what you wished other people would say, think, or do unto your being. 

And when you cannot affect a change in another, and yet your heart longs to, look into their eyes and in your mind, tell the god in those eyes that you love him or her, and then go on your way."  LMN

She was also telling me that I was looking at myself in the eyes of that woman, and that my lifelong battle with food was not really about food for myself. It was about old memories that I deeply buried so the misery of them would not haunt me; memories of being unable to provide for my loved ones. Their cries of 'feed me, feed me' were echoed in my constant searching of my pantry and refrigerator, looking for something to eat and finding nothing even though both were well-stocked.

The chance to set the beggar free was a chance to heal myself.

To read the rest of the wisdom LMN shared that evening, click here.

Music with positive lyrics is an amazingly powerful or dangerous manner in which to program yourself. Rhythm and song are easy to remember, and often 'play themselves' in our minds without us turning them on. Repetitive words, especially when put to music, can program the subconscious very easily, so be careful what you choose to listen to.

Equally important is making sure that when you go to sleep, there is no radio or tv program playing that can fill your mind with harmful or limiting ideas while you are not consciously awake to refuse them. If you must go to sleep with sound, choose powerful and uplifting words that will help you become the kind of you that you seek to be, or choose white noise or wordless music that allows your brain waves to enter into alpha, theta, and delta.

Even better, play a variety of solfeggio codes, for they will help strengthen you in many positive ways. Make your sleep a 'power sleep' by filling your room, body, and subconscious with thoughts and sounds that will produce the magnificent you that you were born to be. Night after night after night of the same information will cause it to become a truth for you.

Change is the one true constant. To be truly alive, one must be amenable to change and be willing to let go of old ideas, thoughts, facts, fictions, and feelings, and must be able to accept new ones, knowing that the 'new' will serve until it doesn't.

Living with flexibility in your thinking keeps you from becoming arthritic :)

This rule is a biggie that most of the world does not understand. Unawakened, unaware people are constantly trying to make themselves fit into the lives, thoughts, truths, and beliefs of others, personally, politically, environmentally, and geographically.

"I should dress, live, think, eat, (etc.) this way because they do."

We are trained from birth to listen to what others say and to do what others think we are supposed to do. The outer world, however, is a reflection for each of us about what we believe, whether the beliefs are hidden deep within our subconsicous or live recognizably close to the surface. Therefore, to make decisions that are in harmony with our 'outer world' is to keep ourselves chained to our limitations.

Unless, of course, your inner world is so perfected that its reflection in the world around you matches the heart and mind of your being.