Pondering what these glorious human beings might be mirroring for me when none of the things I was admiring about them felt like my experience, I realized they showed me what I thought I could not have. How did I recognize that? By becoming aware of the tiny little almost unrecognizable feeling that co-existed along with my appreciation.
As I enjoyed the loveliness of flawless skin, I felt a tiny ‘alas, not me’. As I drank in the beautiful face that radiated illumination and sheer exquisiteness, I felt the same tiny ‘alas, not me’. And so it went for each quality or characteristic I admired. Since I did not resent but only enjoyed that which I beheld, I did not recognize the miniscule negative reinforcement I was giving myself with each admiration until ‘the morning
after’ our peace meditation. Somehow, being in The Peace delivers gifts like that.
Then a second mirrored revelation drifted up from the quiet, somewhat groggy ethers of half-awakeness. I heard the words “encouragement from doctors and difficulties”. I realized that was true in the lives of each of those present at the gathering: difficulties or medical/scientific information spurred them on to achieve the very things I was appreciating about them. For myself, on the other hand, difficulty just discouraged me, and seeking medical advice was an innate terror. So the hidden mirrored message was, "If I did not seek medical/scientific advice or create difficulties to live through, I would not manifest the qualities I saw reflected in others that night."
Ahhhh…. the freedom that comes from releasing limitations.